Nearly 16 years ago, on January 28, 2003, life as I know it began. At the age of 23, I decided to end one of the most important, influential and harmful relationships in my life, which was my day of abstinence. 
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span= "article-image caption-class"> Leah Gross disclosed her sober lifestyle. (picture: @criene via twenty20)4. I had no vision for the future until my drinking began to grow. I was a dreamer and a hopeless romantic. I like to fantasize about the future, what I will do, where I will go, and who I will meet on my way. When I realized I didn't know where I was going, I knew I was too deep.
I remember someone asking me what I want to do after I graduate from college. I can't think of anything. I thought I had to find a way to get paid for the party. One day, I woke up and found myself completely lost. I had no plans but to drink. It was terrible for me. Dr.
Hockmeyer said that almost every alcoholic would eventually steal the performance from the bottle. & He explained that because it requires so much care and feeding, it sucks the vitality of everything else in a person's life. 5. It has caused me trouble, and it has had an impact on me several times throughout the course of my use, from destroying or destroying interpersonal relationships to being arrested or suspended from school. When I was drunk, I did something that I would never do if I were sober. Some of my actions, such as being unfaithful to my boyfriend, lying about my drinking and drug addiction, or taking money from my family, are moral compromises. Sometimes I put my life or the lives of others in danger. Sometimes I even break the law, indulge in illegal substances, drive drunk or provide alcohol to minors.
I used to blame others for all the bad things that happened to me. I often like to say that I was in the wrong place at the wrong time, or that I was just unlucky. But the truth is, every time I get into trouble, I drink or take drugs. Because I'm awake, my biggest problem won't be more than a slight movement violation.
Dr. Hockmeier explained that alcohol is a central nervous system inhibitor that retards people's intelligence. It makes very smart people make very bad decisions. & He said that kind and gentle people can become arrogant bastards. & Otherwise, a patient and careful person will become impulsive and reckless. & quot;
6. In the last few years of my drinking, I lost myself and became emotionally numb. I remember my first week at the drug rehabilitation center when a consultant asked me about my favorite colour. I looked at her blankly. & I don't know, I answered. I no longer have interest or passion, goals or ambitions. For most of my life, I have been enthusiastic about books, art, music and culture, but for many years, I have not entered the bookstore to find pleasure in words. I remember loading my last night, looking in the mirror and seeing a distant stranger staring at me. What's more frightening is that I really don't care about everything anymore. For a long time, alcohol numbed my emotions, and in the end, it seemed to eliminate them. However, in some mornings, usually after the carnival, I wake up and my emotions erupt in a dangerous and terrible way.
According to Dr. Hockmeier, this is not uncommon for alcoholics. As a central nervous system inhibitor, over time, alcohol can dull our emotions and make us afraid to feel anything. However, once these effects disappear, all these feelings will surface, which can easily lead to a vicious circle of alcoholism. You have to drink a little to stop them.
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h3>7. I failed in lifeI failed in everything in life. Really? When I was a freshman, I was on the dean's list. It was not until my junior year that I was likely to graduate in advance when my alcohol consumption increased dramatically. But in the first semester of my senior year, I failed almost all of my registered courses, many of which were due to attendance. I almost destroyed all my meaningful friendships and relationships.
This also led to my losing my job and my relationships with friends, family and loved ones, as I mentioned earlier. In short, it separates me from all the components of a happy and successful life.
Dr. Hockmeier explained that this was the case for most alcoholics because the disease was isolated. However, the opposite is true: it can be cured by health and healing relationships with others. & He said that because alcoholism occupies our rational thinking and distorts our emotions, we are unaware of the fact that we are caught in the devastating claws of disease.
Eight. When I finally got to the bottom and started thinking about abstinence, a very smart man came up with a suggestion. & She said to me, "Look in the mirror and soak it all in." & All the emotions, feelings, shame and incomprehensible demoralization really allow you to experience it for yourself. What she said next changed my life. & You don't have to feel that way anymore. & quot;
She is right. From the day I quit drinking, I experienced high and low, my heart was broken, I was swallowed up by sadness, even shame, but I never felt as depressed as that day. If you understand this, you should consider putting down the bottle. Or, if you're not sure if you're an alcoholic, sit down and write a list of the ways that alcoholics affect your life and share it with your lover.
Please remember: Many people regret their drinking, but I have never met anyone who regrets their drinking.
If you or someone close to you is trying to give up drugs, you can get help.
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